Leaving Yesterday Behind

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Since you left me, I never really tried

To put my life at where it should belong

And I've always let the past come back

I'm realizing that it could be wrong

But now I fin'lly knew

I had to let it go

To make way for a brighter tomorrow

So now I'm leaving yesterday behind

And fin'lly I've made up my mind

To let the mem'ries stay away

And think about today

I'm leaving yesterday behind

'Cause now I'll try to live my life once more

The way I did before

Since I know that I never will forget

The memories that made my yesterday

I will try not to let it interfere

The choices I will make along the way
'Cause I'm not livin' in a world of fantasy

I'm here now in the world of reality

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The Awakening

Revised Edition

A time comes in my life when i finally get it...when, in the midst of all my fears and insanity, i stop dead in my tracks and somewhere the voice inside my head cries out...ENOUGH! Enough fighting and crying and blaming and struggling to hold on.

Then, like a child quieting down after a tantrum, i blink back my tears and begin to look at the world through new eyes.

This is my awakening.

I realize it's time to stop hoping and waiting for something change, or for happiness, safety and security to magically appear over the next horizon.

I realize that in the real world there aren't always fairy tale endings, and that any guarantee of "happily ever after" must begin with me... and in the process a sense of serenity is born of acceptance.

I awaken to the fact that i am not perfect and that not everyone will always love, appreciate or approve of who or what i am... and that's OK. They are entitled to their own views and opinions.

I learn the importance of loving and championing myself... and in the process a sense of new found confidence is born of self-approval.

I stop complaining and blaming other people for the things they did to me - or didn't do for me - and i learn that the only thing i can really count on is the unexpected.

I learn that people don't always say what they mean or mean what they say and that not everyone will always be there for me and that everything isn't always about me.

So, I learn to stand on my own and to take care of myself... and in the process a sense of safety and security is born of self-reliance.

I stop judging and pointing fingers and i begin to accept people as they are and to overlook their shortcomings and human frailties... and in the process a sense of peace and contentment is born of forgiveness.

I learn to open up to new worlds and different points of view.

I begin reassessing and redefining who i am and what i really stand for.

I learn the difference between wanting and needing and i begin to discard the doctrines and values i've outgrown, or should never have bought into to begin with.

I learn that there is power and glory in creating and contributing and i stop maneuvering through life merely as a "consumer" looking for my next fix.

I learn that principles such as honesty and integrity are not the outdated ideals of a bygone era, but the mortar that holds together the foundation upon which i must build a life.

I learn that i don't know everything, it's not my job to save the world and that i can't teach a pig to sing. I learn that the only cross to bear is the one i choose to carry and that martyrs get burned at the stake.

Then i learn about love. I learn to look at relationships as they really are and not as you would have them be. I learn that alone does not mean lonely.

I stop trying to control people, situations and outcomes. I learn to distinguish between guilt and responsibility and the importance of setting boundaries and learning to say NO.

I also stop working so hard at putting my feelings aside, smoothing things over and ignoring my needs. I learn that my body really is my temple. I begin to care for it and treat it with respect. I begin to eat a balanced diet, drink more water, and take more time to exercise.

I learn that being tired fuels doubt, fear, and uncertainty and so i take more time to rest. And, just as food fuels the body, laughter fuels our soul. So i take more time to laugh and to play.

I learn that, for the most part, i get in life what i believe i deserve, and that much of life truly is a self-fulfilling prophecy.

I learn that anything worth achieving is worth working for and that wishing for something to happen is different than working toward making it happen.

More importantly, i learn that in order to achieve success, i need direction, discipline and perseverance. I also learn that no one can do it all alone, and that it's OK to risk asking for help.

I learn the only thing i must truly fear is fear itself.

I learn to step right into and through my fears because i know that whatever happens, i can handle it and to give in to fear is to give away the right to live life on my own terms.

I learn to fight for my life and not to squander it living under a cloud of impending doom.

I learn that life isn't always fair, i don't always get what i think i deserve and that sometimes bad things happen to unsuspecting, good people... and i learn not to always take it personally.

I learn that nobody's punishing me and everything isn't always somebody's fault. It's just life happening. I learn to admit when i am wrong and to build bridges instead of walls.

I learn that negative feelings such as anger, envy and resentment must be understood and redirected or they will suffocate the life out of me and poison the universe that surrounds me.

I learn to be thankful and to take comfort in many of the simple things we take for granted, things that millions of people upon the earth can only dream about: a full refrigerator, clean running water, a soft warm bed, a long hot shower.

Then, i begin to take responsibility for myself by myself and i make myself a promise to never betray myself and to never, ever settle for less than my heart's desire.

I make it a point to keep smiling, to keep trusting, and to stay open to every wonderful possibility.

I hang a wind chime outside my window so i can listen to the wind.

Finally, with courage in my heart, i take a stand, i take a deep breath, and i begin to design the life i want to live as best i can.

Life is indeed very, very beautiful…
We just make it so difficult by spending most of our time on the things that are not so important.....
Stop and smell the flowers....
Don't wait for the time to come when all you can say and hope is "I should have done this or I should have done that."
Love deeply, Laugh loudly. Hope...Dream.... and be happy.

As they say, Happiness is a Journey and not s destination...
Work like you don’t need money, dance like nobody's watching and love like you've never been hurt!!!

Bowling - 2nd Session

31 Jan 2006

2nd session is quite ok compared to our 1st, mas mataas nakuha naming scores yun nga lang bumaba yung rank namin...from 8th placer, 9th na lang kami...pero ok lang, what important is we had fun & we enjoyed it :D may 3rd and 4th session pa naman e...how i wish may improvement na score ko..hehehe...


GO BLACK TEAM!!! =P